Saturday, May 17, 2008

My Goal

At last... finally i began to get some idea on what i wanna be...... Destination: Japan ya hahaha... ya really i wanted to go there....because i like the way the life there..... The politeness of the people....good virtue....always wanted to give their best.....and many more.... these somehow suits my taste....

Well to achieve my goal, for now i need to do well in my A'level , so as to get the Precious Monbukagakusho scholarship.... that's the legendary scholarship that is offered by the Japanese Education ministry.....


WHY I CHOOSE JAPAN?
well i've just remembered about my childhood times.... my parents always promised to allow me to buy 1 comic if i can get a top 10 rank in class during my primary school life. Well i always did, haha and yup guess what comic i like to buy? DORAEMON !!! after reading it, i always tell my parents about Hokkaido....Fuji mountain...and everything about Japan !!!and i want to visit them...

Soon in S'pore, in my sec 4 life, i began to reconnect with my dream, after a few years being manipulated by online games like maplestory... ragnarok.... and these caused a fatal damage to my studies.... The connection is to watch anime, read manga.... and since i'm considered as an outcast in the class - since my interest and way of thinking is different from the rest..... They prefer to see a group of people fighting over a small ball as if they do not have any "balls" at all eventhough they do hahaha XD (joking), so this is the best method for me..... Soon i found some people who share the same interest as me..... 2 precious friends- whom i can get along with..... however one of them went to poly, while the other is in CJC 1T15

In sec 4 also, during the June holiday, i Joined the Geography trip to KURIHARA, Japan(refer to June/July 2007 archive).... there for the 1st time in my life i went to japan and meet the Japanese with my own eyes. Eventhough some people in the group tries to disrupt the whole journey,the irritating rules that was set by the group leader, overall i find the trip is beneficial..... I'm also still in contact with one of my Japanese friends....

FAMILY PROBLEM
Thus this is how the feeling of wanting to go to japan is born.... I am now hiding this dream from my family( except my father, mother and sister) for that first they are going to bad-mouth about Japan to discourage me for sure.... and secondly for that the whole family relation trees are really shaky...always quarelled with each other... the last time was during the distribution of the inheritance...one aunt tries to monopolise the whole things and it triggered an uproar.... my family(father,mother& sister) who did not bother about the stupid inheritance also dragged into the matter.... Furthermore, i will always remember on how my aunt tries to distract me 3 days before the O'level - i wish i could just take a knife and cut her to pieces, but what's the point of doing that? If i were to kill her, wouldn't that her husband and children will be affected? so... the best choice is just to cut off the links....

I BELIEVE THAT THERE IS NO POINT IN TREASURING THE FAMILY TREE... I JUST WISH TO START A NEW.... TOGETHER WITH MY FATHER, MOTHER AND SISTER AND COMPLETELY CUT OFF THE WHOLE FAMILY TREES.......

Therefore i'll work hard towards achieving my goal...and i really really want it very badly.... GAMBATTE !!!

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