KINDNESS MAY HARM YOU INSTEAD yes it is indeed true, yesterday i was at Tiong bahru's fairprice, getting all my household supplies, since i was buying detergents, cleaning stuffs and foods, the amount topped up to $ 43. When i was heading towards the cashier while carrying the heavy basket, an aunty stopped me. She asked me whether i have NTUC card... i said no... then she suggested something like " lang fei" which means "waste in chinese" . yah she's talking about the link points and asked me to use her NTUC card so that she will earn the points. She keep stressing - you will not be at loss one. and out of my kindness i agreed.

The point i'm trying to make here is that i am too kind somehow... this aunty is ungrateful bastard... no "thank you" come out from her mouth and furthermore, she's so greedy to try to take the "points receipt"-you know this point receipt from NTUC will allow you to purchase the " made in germany antique" utensils that only requires you to pay additional $5 after a specific number has been collected. This is exactly the same as the Malay proverbs describe it " LIKE THE DUTCH ASKING FOR LAND" which means give a bit , wants more ... give more wants everything !!!!

I am indeed lucky that this is just scamming... with me not gaining nor losing at all. But if this is a serious case, take for example hypnotise or this aunty suddenly accused me for stoling her NTUC card; i would have lost out isn't it? Furthermore i swear now... that i will not go out unnecessarily in my school Uniform - it sucks you know, because you can't get into serious arguement with an anyone. In singapore so far i observed, any public who are irritated by students of certain school will play cheat by complaining to the school even if they are at fault, they will sound as if they are very innocent.

I know that i am the type who's unable to get into an fight, nor to see anyone suffering because i'm brought up that way. But i know i need to change this....in our world today scamming exists in many form, and a completely "holy" person is going to bow before those who are expert at cheating. This is the part of the society that i hated the most, cheating is present widely but its not a seen as a crime. Since i came to singapore, i've been cheated a lot of times - be it by the tamil money changer uncle who charged me higher exchange rates , Sim lim square shop that lied to me that the MP4 player is made by s'pore polytechnic student where as the truth is that it's made in china. and many more... what a terrible life it is... but its an experience doesn't it... haha... wonderful just wonderful... this is what we called mind game... and a freaky world muhahahahhaa....

The final battle is near... haha looks like i have to stop thinking about next year and concentrate on the present days. Need to clear this year before advancing into my next plan... hehe..

World End - Flow

WORLD END
Vocals: FLOW
Lyrics: Asakawa Koshi & Hayashi Keigo
Composition: Asakawa Takeshi
Arrangement: FLOW & Tsutaya Koichi

The light that was born at the world’s end is now in the wind

I can’t live just by whitewashing
I can’t heal just by kindness

What was stolen?
In an unchanging world
What did I hear?
A colorful song

Everything is bright

So to let shattered dreams echo to the edge of tomorrow
Light was born at the world’s end; we become one
Now in the wind

I can’t laugh like it’s someone else’s business
I can’t wipe it away just with loneliness

What was won?
At the end of the fighting
What did I hear?
A sad shout

Everything is crying

So to let shattered dreams echo to the edge of tomorrow
Light was born at the world’s end; we become one
Now in the wind

Don’t let anyone cry; return to your filled heart
Overcome just about everything already

So to let the sky that I saw back then reach ahead of my wishes
In the morning that creates the world’s beginning, we’re pure white
Now we become the wind

sometimes i when i do something, a few old memories came into my mind... its like the sudden random glance of the past... i don't really know why, but its just that it keeps happening to me... why??? the answer probably lies somewhere....

a storm is imminent, need to brace for impact ! I am not going to screw it this time...

Friends

sometimes i am just wondering... of all the friends that we made, are all of them everlasting? i don't think so... Initially i thought school environment would made a difference in the friendship bond, and i used to thought that in CJC the friendship bond can continue to expand-since everyone used only one language, english. But sadly it is not the case... I was in CJC for two intakes, and to roughly estimate, there should be around 30 acquaintances that i have met through the IG. unfortunately only a few remained in contact.

My observation
The girls are usually more friendly, however once they have found their boyfriend, we should start to forget all the moments we had spent together, because she will usually starting to ignore you...

The boys are usually more ignorant,probably they are 'less interested' in dealing with those of the same sex,you know its every boys dream to be able to speak to the opposite gender and to get to know them better. However, boys are usually more arrogant, once you are no longer involved in same activities as he is, he will purposely forget you.. my experiences is that when i was with one of my IG friend(a girl) , we met this IG friend(a boy) , we said hi to him, but he only responded to the girl, ignoring my presence, what a pathetic creature he is... too proud of himself....

My IG mates are now shrinking one by one.... probably because i rarely logged online.. but on the other hand, they might have acquired their sense of pride....

So, from IG orientation, i learnt that some people have the sense of pride... too proud of themselves that they forgot about you, probably on purpose.

lately i have been thinking alot,about how cruel this world is. Yesterday as i was on my way back from redhill hawker centre, i was enjoying the evening breeze. Not until the loud bang sound slashed through the peaceful evening... From a distance i saw a man with a rifle. he was smiling as he held his rifle with pride, as i walked pass, i saw plenty of crows corpse. Horrible.... pretty horrible, why do they have to kill these creatures? moreover, he's legal killer ( he put the sign " CROW CULLING IN PROCESS"). Furthermore, it was only last week in which he carried out the same operation. These crows may post noise problem, but on the other hand by ending their lives isn't thats just too wrong? These Crows may still have its children to feed... if these crows are gone, what will happen to its children? They will of course die gradually...tortured indirectly....the worst thing of all. Perhaps human does not really understand.....oh well retribution will come surely...from the soul of the dead....

Sometimes i also feel this world is a horrible place to live in. Anger, jealously, hatred, revenge are terms that are associated with human beings.These irritating things are the reason why human are unable to get along together... When there's loathe, it will lead to killing - then revenge will kicks in and yup revenge and revenge again....an endless chain of madness.... Everyone in this earth will surely have these things, even the most "pure" person on this earth. Of course there may have been some 'special' human,in which so far i have only seen one... the one with absolute zero anger and hatred... what an honour to be able to meet such a person...

Sometimes i just really hope what happens in Anime will come true, such as in GUNDAM 00, whereby there will be a private military organisation that strives to unite the world, creating a world whereby everyone is able to get along with each other and eradication those who hold on to the belief of protecting people with special status; such as POWER, RELIGION, RACE....
If it existed it would be great doesn't it.. hehe

Watched new anime- Natsume Yuujinchou.

Natsume Takashi has the ability to see spirits, which he has long kept secret. However, once he inherits a strange book that belonged to his deceased grandmother, Reiko, he discovers the reason why spirits surround him. Containing the names of these spirits, a binding contract was formed between the spirits and the owner of the book. Now, Natsume is determined to free the spirits and dissolve the contracts. With the help of a spirit cat, his days are filled trying to return the names to these spirits.

This is a very touching anime,yet teaches us something useful in life;
also i learnt that in every small shrine, there is a god. This god will disappear if people no longer visited the shrine.

troublesome.... in just one day i have been prescribed with loads and loads of pills... phew... no choice,because i'm ill. But i feel like a person suffering from grave illnesses...