sad day....

well, today was the day whereby i felt sad for the whole day.... morning, i went to give a call to my parents. Reporting to them about my final year result....

Of course, when i said i failed english paper 2, the scolded me .... yup, i deserved that scolding, because i couldn't even pass a single english paper.... My parents kept saying that i won't be advanced to sec 4E, cos as what mr chai said," if u failed english, ur other subjects must be at least A1"
My result are not even A1, mostly hanging around B categories....

Of the 3 failure of overall english in class, which was 45%,48% and 49.8%, i can already tell that i am the one with 45%, because of my P2 result now and my CAs and SAs....... let say for CA1 and CA2, each 15% , i got 50. . . then SA1, 25%o the total, i got 49.. and SA2, which is 45%, P2 let say 40.....
all of them added up to 100% which is the overall , then the overall result will be around 15+12.25+18= 45.25

Both my parents were really disappointed with my result that my father wrath had reached the highest level and therefore, he did not want to talk to me already, because i disgraced the family.... my mother said that of all my grandfather's son and daughter, i will be the one who ever retained.... ..... . . . . .
my parents stated that if i am not able to proceed to sec 4E, they will force me to go back to indonesia... no i don't want to go back... i want to study in singapore.... with my classmates of 304....in queensway secondary school.. . ..

My only hope is now is just to hope that the teachers will be kind enough to let me to advance to sec4E... please... please.... let me advance to sec 4E....