これは僕のラストメセジ。。。じごくおしまいじかんまで。
わるいのひとはまだサクセル、でも私がんばるのひとはしっぱいにあげる。
どうして。。。わからない。。。
この世界にほんとかなしい、何もできない。
だから。。。今このじかん。。これはあたらしいぼくのせんどうだ！
じぶんのみらいはあきらめるんだ。
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
"To be chivalrous... its to be able to protect the weak, vanguishing the strong. However.. these things only happen in movies. in reality you can't even make a living by being chivalrous..."
These are the opening words of the japanese drama Ninkyo Helper... its actually a drama about Yakuza who are posted to work at old folks home for their training...However through out their training, they began to become show symphathy towards the elderly....
If an old people have memory loss, its not called senile.... its DEMENTIA !!!
There are many events that really cause us to reflect;
would you abandon your parents for the success in your job?
If your parents suffer from Alzheimer disease( memory loss) , would you still want to take care of them?
These questions are important to us, for that we live in a continent called ASIA- one where filial piety is still being uphold high.
These are the opening words of the japanese drama Ninkyo Helper... its actually a drama about Yakuza who are posted to work at old folks home for their training...However through out their training, they began to become show symphathy towards the elderly....
If an old people have memory loss, its not called senile.... its DEMENTIA !!!
There are many events that really cause us to reflect;
would you abandon your parents for the success in your job?
If your parents suffer from Alzheimer disease( memory loss) , would you still want to take care of them?
These questions are important to us, for that we live in a continent called ASIA- one where filial piety is still being uphold high.
Friday, June 26, 2009
Bah, this holiday i have just experienced what it is like to face the traffic police. Yah, i was riding Honda .... when i saw the traffic light just turned green from a distance, i speed up...
40km/h....
45.....
50.....
55..........
60.....
65......
70...
Yah by the time the speed-meter reached 70km/h, the whole motorcycle handle vibrated....probably because it is not designed to run at high speed despite on the speedometer showed that it can reached up to 100++km/h.
Back to the story again... so when i speed up and reached the zebra cross..... the traffic light suddenly become yellow and i couldn't brake on time, because Motorcycle brake will require quite a distance in order to stop at such a speed.... So... i just breakthrough it.... since there are no zebra crossing on the zebra cross as well....
But then from a far, suddenly a traffic police jumped out of nowhere and acted as if he is shouting " SURPRISE!!!" ya he stood in front of my way and put his hand infront, just like how a superman trying to stop a chunk of mass coming at him.
Of course this 'superman' can stop it, because i pressed both the brake on the handle and on the right feet such that the bike screeched and just make a soft contact with his palm...otherwise he would experience inelastic collision and fly with at least half the KE !!!!!!
Yah of course in the end i got fined....plus he shouted at me angrily....saying that my brake is loose....its quite traumatic to experience traffic incident for the first time....
40km/h....
45.....
50.....
55..........
60.....
65......
70...
Yah by the time the speed-meter reached 70km/h, the whole motorcycle handle vibrated....probably because it is not designed to run at high speed despite on the speedometer showed that it can reached up to 100++km/h.
Back to the story again... so when i speed up and reached the zebra cross..... the traffic light suddenly become yellow and i couldn't brake on time, because Motorcycle brake will require quite a distance in order to stop at such a speed.... So... i just breakthrough it.... since there are no zebra crossing on the zebra cross as well....
But then from a far, suddenly a traffic police jumped out of nowhere and acted as if he is shouting " SURPRISE!!!" ya he stood in front of my way and put his hand infront, just like how a superman trying to stop a chunk of mass coming at him.
Of course this 'superman' can stop it, because i pressed both the brake on the handle and on the right feet such that the bike screeched and just make a soft contact with his palm...otherwise he would experience inelastic collision and fly with at least half the KE !!!!!!
Yah of course in the end i got fined....plus he shouted at me angrily....saying that my brake is loose....its quite traumatic to experience traffic incident for the first time....
Thursday, June 04, 2009
Blackberry...with F-word
yo! yesterday was the day i really found the fact. Yah yesterday,my uncle asked me to search out the price of blackberry... yah at first i thought he mean this:
Then i asked him that isn't that its perishable? you know its...fruits...
Then on the phone, he said huh? its the square-square shaped thingy... then i understand what he wanted... its this four sided thingy that has 2 line of symmetry:
Yah, so i set off to Sim lim square to track out the best deal in there... 800, 820, 830,815,780... aha ! 780 . The shop was at the first floor, between the myriad of other handphone shop... Trust me.. its hard to ask these shop owner for the price as a student... they replied you unwillingly.....
Then there is one store owner, who offered me special price of 830 with gst, with before the additional discount of $834.60... yah, so after i reconfirmed with my uncle, i went back to his shop to make the last check.... It was then instead of him wanting to serve me, the other shop attendant, with big muscles told him off and he attend to me....
He asked. " what you want?" in a very AH-Beng style...
Then i replied, " i want this, pointing at one of the phone.... "
" Money first...i take the good for you" He said with a stern voice...
" Good come first.... i check ok then i pay you" i replied him with the same tone
Then he unwillingly walked off... at first actually they promised me that they have the goods in their store, but i saw this "ah-beng" walked off to another store to get the goods...
When he came back, he put the square square black box infront of me and said nah, see!
The first fact that he 'take' goods from other store has made me suspect of the quality. you know, there are actually a lot of complaint from people that taking goods from other shop has the risk of 2nd hand goods. This is because, you know Sim Lim people are expert in I.T. They can happily adjust the things to the extent that will fool the eyes of the people.
Second fact is that the box is also quite old, got a lot of scratches..
He then asked me, so Ok? " you have another one? this one the box looked quite damaged" i asked him.
"No dun have anymore, so you buying?" he asked
" No, this one is not in good quality" i replied him
This is the word that he launched at me.....
He said " F@$% you, waste my time.."
"Your goods not in good quality so i dont want buy lor..." i said to him
Yah now i am really certain.. only to buy computer stuffs only in Sim Lim... no others.
But its really contradicting... In Sim Lim they have the Star Assurance thingy that covers only the level 1 shops. One of the pledge is " TO BE POLITE...."
Contradicting to the max !!! hahahahaha... what an adventure.....
Then i asked him that isn't that its perishable? you know its...fruits...
Then on the phone, he said huh? its the square-square shaped thingy... then i understand what he wanted... its this four sided thingy that has 2 line of symmetry:
Yah, so i set off to Sim lim square to track out the best deal in there... 800, 820, 830,815,780... aha ! 780 . The shop was at the first floor, between the myriad of other handphone shop... Trust me.. its hard to ask these shop owner for the price as a student... they replied you unwillingly.....
Then there is one store owner, who offered me special price of 830 with gst, with before the additional discount of $834.60... yah, so after i reconfirmed with my uncle, i went back to his shop to make the last check.... It was then instead of him wanting to serve me, the other shop attendant, with big muscles told him off and he attend to me....
He asked. " what you want?" in a very AH-Beng style...
Then i replied, " i want this, pointing at one of the phone.... "
" Money first...i take the good for you" He said with a stern voice...
" Good come first.... i check ok then i pay you" i replied him with the same tone
Then he unwillingly walked off... at first actually they promised me that they have the goods in their store, but i saw this "ah-beng" walked off to another store to get the goods...
When he came back, he put the square square black box infront of me and said nah, see!
The first fact that he 'take' goods from other store has made me suspect of the quality. you know, there are actually a lot of complaint from people that taking goods from other shop has the risk of 2nd hand goods. This is because, you know Sim Lim people are expert in I.T. They can happily adjust the things to the extent that will fool the eyes of the people.
Second fact is that the box is also quite old, got a lot of scratches..
He then asked me, so Ok? " you have another one? this one the box looked quite damaged" i asked him.
"No dun have anymore, so you buying?" he asked
" No, this one is not in good quality" i replied him
This is the word that he launched at me.....He said " F@$% you, waste my time.."
"Your goods not in good quality so i dont want buy lor..." i said to him
Yah now i am really certain.. only to buy computer stuffs only in Sim Lim... no others.
But its really contradicting... In Sim Lim they have the Star Assurance thingy that covers only the level 1 shops. One of the pledge is " TO BE POLITE...."
Contradicting to the max !!! hahahahaha... what an adventure.....
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
Letter to the future.
I've sent the letter this morning, to try my chance of getting that utopia. Chances are unknown, but still its worth the try. Man, the post office system is somehow complicated....one question that raised my eyebrows are," do you want to track down your letter?" Huh? track down letter, GPS system? haha its actually just give a code-number to your letter. But its not purchasing insurance for your letter...which i thought it was so ,at first....
Back to me....
I've got the info that dark clouds are coming... my aunty's aunties-in-law's family. The total number of 'battalion' that are coming,are capable of causing quite a significant destruction. The impact is coming pretty soon.... the moment they touchdown and stepped into the house.
Probabilty of winning the counter-attack =0%
probability of successful defence= 10%
Probability of being able to dodge the attacks=1000%
Ya, its obvious which one will i choose... I've currently working on the precautionary measure; keeping all things-related-to-me withim my room and sealing it with a spell... Not just a regular spell, but that one that will make my things 'camouflaged' and undetectable... Luckily my cousin from NUS coming over to stay during the 'holy-day'.He can occupy my room to prevent access to the non camouflageable things.... but still... the damage, there will be....
Back to me....
I've got the info that dark clouds are coming... my aunty's aunties-in-law's family. The total number of 'battalion' that are coming,are capable of causing quite a significant destruction. The impact is coming pretty soon.... the moment they touchdown and stepped into the house.
Probabilty of winning the counter-attack =0%
probability of successful defence= 10%
Probability of being able to dodge the attacks=1000%
Ya, its obvious which one will i choose... I've currently working on the precautionary measure; keeping all things-related-to-me withim my room and sealing it with a spell... Not just a regular spell, but that one that will make my things 'camouflaged' and undetectable... Luckily my cousin from NUS coming over to stay during the 'holy-day'.He can occupy my room to prevent access to the non camouflageable things.... but still... the damage, there will be....
Friday, May 22, 2009
Saturday, May 02, 2009
a taken away miracle
Why ???? why do this thing has to happen again.... always.... always whenever i am about to get something, it will be taken away by another people....and despair bestowed upon me...
in secondary school;
-The almost-complete project was stolen by that guy
-Top position in XXX subject was taken away by him
-the EXCO position in CCA are given to another person due to his ability to sweet-talk to the teacher.
and yesterday event reminds me of these unfortunate events; yes i know, i have to admit defeat for Malay that i am not as good as him ; but basically its due to my recklessness...(over confident)
Even so, feeling remorse over these things are useless, it will only cause more damage to me....
I have decided to throw the final chip away... that is the internet... yah, i managed to halt my anime addiction, but instead i fall into another trap - FACEBOOK... and its even worse, for that facebook can be accessed even with slow internet connection...
Its time to move forward...and try to confront the A level with quantum brain!!!
in secondary school;
-The almost-complete project was stolen by that guy
-Top position in XXX subject was taken away by him
-the EXCO position in CCA are given to another person due to his ability to sweet-talk to the teacher.
and yesterday event reminds me of these unfortunate events; yes i know, i have to admit defeat for Malay that i am not as good as him ; but basically its due to my recklessness...(over confident)
Even so, feeling remorse over these things are useless, it will only cause more damage to me....
I have decided to throw the final chip away... that is the internet... yah, i managed to halt my anime addiction, but instead i fall into another trap - FACEBOOK... and its even worse, for that facebook can be accessed even with slow internet connection...
Its time to move forward...and try to confront the A level with quantum brain!!!
Friday, April 03, 2009
My on-list anime has finally ended:
Gundam 00
Toradora
Clannad ~after story~
Zoku natsume yuujinchou
aLL of these anime set me thinking... about me, others and this world....
Toradora, the anime that i liked the most. In fact Roy and khittisun do like it. This anime is about school life. relationship between a guy who was feared by his peers because of his looks, and a girl who is short and is ferocious , nicknamed " Palmtop tiger". Its fun...
Quantum, the latest topic that i found interest in it. From my research this past few days, i found out that quantum actually controls our consciousness.... and my theory is that if this consciousness is resonated together with reflexes, that human will be perfect.... for that he is able to predict an event before it actually happenned....
I have decided to put a halt on anime temporarily... i wanted to find happiness with my own hand. This happiness can only be obtained through achievement...
My thought
Everytime....
I always imagine that i am a child soldier in the Middle East, fighting against the invader that tries 'brainwash' us. Armed with only an AK-47 i dashed across the ruins... There are those who fight alongside me, but as time goes on, one by one of them fell .There are other international parties that offered to help, but still they may be the puppet of the invader. The invader are equipped with the most advanced technologies... but still... i always recalled one thing;
My leader always said that i am running away from battles. I'm running away because i am afraid, afraid to pull the trigger for that it will hurt others... but.... few days ago i met that person... she gave me a new weapon that i have never seen before. It is not sharp but it does somehow cast away my weak heart which strengthen my confidence to fight. Therefore I'll continue to fight... nothing has changed... this is not the future that i have desired....
Gundam 00
Toradora
Clannad ~after story~
Zoku natsume yuujinchou
aLL of these anime set me thinking... about me, others and this world....
Toradora, the anime that i liked the most. In fact Roy and khittisun do like it. This anime is about school life. relationship between a guy who was feared by his peers because of his looks, and a girl who is short and is ferocious , nicknamed " Palmtop tiger". Its fun...
Quantum, the latest topic that i found interest in it. From my research this past few days, i found out that quantum actually controls our consciousness.... and my theory is that if this consciousness is resonated together with reflexes, that human will be perfect.... for that he is able to predict an event before it actually happenned....
I have decided to put a halt on anime temporarily... i wanted to find happiness with my own hand. This happiness can only be obtained through achievement...
My thought
Everytime....
I always imagine that i am a child soldier in the Middle East, fighting against the invader that tries 'brainwash' us. Armed with only an AK-47 i dashed across the ruins... There are those who fight alongside me, but as time goes on, one by one of them fell .There are other international parties that offered to help, but still they may be the puppet of the invader. The invader are equipped with the most advanced technologies... but still... i always recalled one thing;
My leader always said that i am running away from battles. I'm running away because i am afraid, afraid to pull the trigger for that it will hurt others... but.... few days ago i met that person... she gave me a new weapon that i have never seen before. It is not sharp but it does somehow cast away my weak heart which strengthen my confidence to fight. Therefore I'll continue to fight... nothing has changed... this is not the future that i have desired....
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Toradora
There’s something in this world that no one has seen before.
It is gentle and sweet.
Maybe if it could be seen, everyone would fight over it.
That’s why no one has ever seen it.
The world hid it so that no one could get their hands on it easily.
However, someday, someone will find it.
The person who deserves it the most will definitely find it.
This is how it’s created
It is gentle and sweet.
Maybe if it could be seen, everyone would fight over it.
That’s why no one has ever seen it.
The world hid it so that no one could get their hands on it easily.
However, someday, someone will find it.
The person who deserves it the most will definitely find it.
This is how it’s created
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Monbukagakushou
The time has come... this year is the Monbukagakushou year for me... its the most crucial time, to determine whether that dream can be fulfilled or not. There are people waiting for me there, one is my old childhood friend, the other is my senpai* - one who was ahead of me and managed to use that 'bridge'.
I have already been handicapped last year by the " two alphabet" which is blocking my future pathway. Anyway its no use complaining as there nothing will change.
But, as long as possibility is not 0%, there is still chance .
Monbukagakushou, my only chance....to change everything...
I have already been handicapped last year by the " two alphabet" which is blocking my future pathway. Anyway its no use complaining as there nothing will change.
But, as long as possibility is not 0%, there is still chance .
Monbukagakushou, my only chance....to change everything...
Friday, January 16, 2009
When i am in medan, mostly is just staying at home to help out my parents. Well during my holiday i have to hide my identity when inquired about my education info. I'll just say i study in local school. Reasons being that studying overseas is quite rare cases here and this is to avoid unnecessary trouble.
Hehe
oh ya during holiday, i also went to feet of Sibayak Volcano to try the hot spring there... the water is boiling hot, the cold wind is blowing... hot and cold mixture ^.^ its relaxing.
oh ya during holiday, i also went to feet of Sibayak Volcano to try the hot spring there... the water is boiling hot, the cold wind is blowing... hot and cold mixture ^.^ its relaxing.
sibayak volcano
Aqua factory
(this is one of the factory that produces the mineral water)
then there is a famous temple always visited by most medan people whenever they come to brastagi.
main hall
cute statue
well aside from that, this holiday is also the first time whereby most of the time when i went around the city, i upgraded into motorcycle. And of course for the first time i got stopped by a traffic police for driving at 10km/h. Since that day, i began to increase speed to 30 - 40 km/h maximum speed i have ever reached is 60km/h but it is dangerous to drive at that speed in the city... plus, the whole motorcycle will be vibrating quickly at that speed.
This holiday i also found someone who has managed to achieve what i have long really wanted. She is my senpai*(senior) and i hope to be able to emulate her.
Holiday over
hi after a long time... finally i am back, blogging. Well during holiday, i just went back to Medan and of course went to batam for the OCIP.
Here's Brief report abt batam
the orphanage
my roommates
sharing meal session
playing ball ball
checkmate
interacting sessions
teamwork
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hello :)
ear pumping session
challenger?
what's his name again? Aheng uncle?
group photos
finale
its an enriching experience.
Here's Brief report abt batam
the orphanage
my roommates
sharing meal session
playing ball ball
checkmate
interacting sessions
teamwork
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hello :)
ear pumping session
challenger?
what's his name again? Aheng uncle?
group photos
finale
its an enriching experience.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Friday, November 07, 2008
another Fairprice incident again. I thought the evening will be a good time for me, as i was sms-ing away with my malaysian friend. Everything was fun... until.... when i was about to pay for the groceries...
enjoying the chit-chatting
An aunty approached me and said " ni she wo ho mian de" which means you are behind me... yes she was accusing me that i cut her queue... cut queue?? the fact is that i do not even see her face on the long queue....
Seed ModeAmazingly i managed to enter my " Seed Mode".... i raised my voice at her.. shouting that "i am following the queue"..... she stunned for a while. Not until the cashier suggested to me to relent to her, as she only bought a few stuffs. Yah so let her go first, but in my mind i was quite satisfied of my achievement... i am no longer a weaklings.... hahaha
This event happen at Fairprice Junction 8, at about 9pm, counter 11 Ironically this kind of unfortunate event always happen at Fairprice. Gotta be on my highest alert whenever i am at Fairprice from now on... And of course i shall continue to refrain from using vulgarities like the 1/4 fish and 3/4 duck as it is childish.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
I am wondering that good person can also turn bad. This is because today I stumbled across my old friend's blog.I was so surprised because that person changed from a top student to some beer-drinking adolescent. Scary doesn't it... not mentioning that person keep on scolding 1/4 Fish and 3/4 Duck in the post(Magnificient,isn't it?) From what i know before ,this person is a well-mannered person, but something must have happened in the past 4 years that somehow 'corrupt' the mind. Scary isn't it...
Monday, November 03, 2008
Hmph i see... if you ever goes against the will of another person, he will make life miserable for you. But is this revenge appropriate at all in the first place? he, who have higher authority than you will basically just use his status to press on you just because you don't do as what he commanded you to do... furthermore this illogical act is the same as trying to start a war with you... Anyway those who dare to pull the trigger, should also be ready to receive the blow as well. Hahahaha this is really interesting doesn't it....
This is what we called life on earth today, no matter how "Pure" and religious the person is, hatred will never be seperated from them. Selfishness, materialistic desire, Loathe will always goes round them just like electrons orbitting around a nucleus.
Haha, looks like i'm too serious here... but yes this is what i am thinking right now...
I am also unable to somehow 'repay' the help that was given by one of the teacher,he helped to free me from clutches of that monster. Yes, monster from few months ago... the monster that demanded me to stick with my life,even if i am not suitable with it.....Whenever i tried to get its understanding, it always replied me with the famous M1 Quote " ONE LIFE LIVE IT".... Learn to adapt? but i am not an experiment subject...furthermore time was already running short. If i were to follow the order blindly that day, i would now be in agony over my results....
Those were dark times.... the case looked as if it can never be closed....countless number of times i were invited to have a cup of tea with the chosen one... It was then this man appeared before me... Holding a bazooka, he blasted the monster away... i was really grateful to him.... but still i am unable to sort of 'repaying' him in this exam, but i will continue to give back my gratitude :)
This is what we called life on earth today, no matter how "Pure" and religious the person is, hatred will never be seperated from them. Selfishness, materialistic desire, Loathe will always goes round them just like electrons orbitting around a nucleus.
Haha, looks like i'm too serious here... but yes this is what i am thinking right now...
I am also unable to somehow 'repay' the help that was given by one of the teacher,he helped to free me from clutches of that monster. Yes, monster from few months ago... the monster that demanded me to stick with my life,even if i am not suitable with it.....Whenever i tried to get its understanding, it always replied me with the famous M1 Quote " ONE LIFE LIVE IT".... Learn to adapt? but i am not an experiment subject...furthermore time was already running short. If i were to follow the order blindly that day, i would now be in agony over my results....
Those were dark times.... the case looked as if it can never be closed....countless number of times i were invited to have a cup of tea with the chosen one... It was then this man appeared before me... Holding a bazooka, he blasted the monster away... i was really grateful to him.... but still i am unable to sort of 'repaying' him in this exam, but i will continue to give back my gratitude :)
Saturday, October 11, 2008
"What's the point of spending your time with anime?You could have go out somewhere "
Yup this is the statement that my friend told me 2 days ago. But this statement seemed useless to me. I also cannot understand myself, whenever i see people only a certain times i smile at them... the rest of the time i just walked pass them expressionlessly....
Perhaps this is my character and it takes quite sometime to change it, and about giving up on anime.... I cannot do that. Because it is something that give me the courage apart from my parents.... My contact with anime was revived by my secondary 3 classmates, Danial Mirza Razzy bin Abdul Razak... at that time, i was still a maplestory dude.... but then as i watched anime i noticed something.... that it actually has a hidden meaning behind some shows...and it is a good lesson to learn from, aligned with our ASIAN Tradition.(JAP is an Asian country)
That is then how i started my journey to become an otaku....Along the journey i met another person that share the same interest... Chew Teck Ann from CJC 1T15. Of course it is great.... and at the same time Anime seem to act like a pact with others... Pact to preserve your friendship , to retain your tradition and of course to be always be ready to face tommorrow.
Yup this is the statement that my friend told me 2 days ago. But this statement seemed useless to me. I also cannot understand myself, whenever i see people only a certain times i smile at them... the rest of the time i just walked pass them expressionlessly....
Perhaps this is my character and it takes quite sometime to change it, and about giving up on anime.... I cannot do that. Because it is something that give me the courage apart from my parents.... My contact with anime was revived by my secondary 3 classmates, Danial Mirza Razzy bin Abdul Razak... at that time, i was still a maplestory dude.... but then as i watched anime i noticed something.... that it actually has a hidden meaning behind some shows...and it is a good lesson to learn from, aligned with our ASIAN Tradition.(JAP is an Asian country)
That is then how i started my journey to become an otaku....Along the journey i met another person that share the same interest... Chew Teck Ann from CJC 1T15. Of course it is great.... and at the same time Anime seem to act like a pact with others... Pact to preserve your friendship , to retain your tradition and of course to be always be ready to face tommorrow.
Friday, October 10, 2008
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